Birthday Love…7/8/2009
Thursday, July 9th, 2009
My birthday was yesterday.
I had a party on Tuesday to celebrate life.
In the light of events both culturally and in my little Universe, I was feeling extra grateful for the little things.
The moments, on this birthday, were like single grains of sand to me. No matter how minute in size? I noticed them all.
Like snapshots in time.
Maybe that is part of getting older.
I sat and watched my friends, how very lovely they are. They are kind, generous, successful, strong and open hearted people.
Just noticing how something has changed in me.
Maybe change is not the word, since it feels more like a returning to something I already knew on some level, but was not consciously choosing.
I want to love people for the way I AM. Not for the way they are or I need them to be.
Read that again slowly…
To love a person for the way I AM, not the way they are or I need them to be.
Someone says something hurtful? Or disappoints in any way? Someone judges me or isn’t there for me like I would want them to be? At this point in my life, what does that have to do with me?
To love a person the way I AM…not the way they are or I need them to be.
Because I AM loving. I want to give a person the benefit of the doubt. I want to be generous in 2nd, 3rd and 4th chances. I want to be tolerant of differences. I don’t want to hold anything against another person. To make them pay for a mistake they have made, I don’t want to remind someone of their “faults” or “flaws”.
I want to love.
I always have. It is my insecurities from past crushes and blows that have kept me from fully demonstrating this in my life.
But here, on my 35th birthday, I find a pure form of this- unadulterated and real- in the form of gratitude.
On this birthday, out of all my years, I received more love than I could take in.
In observation? I believe the reason for this is I have been more generous than I have ever been at any point in my life.
I have been generous of time, my smile, a hug, understanding, listening, loyalty, forgiving and acknowledging a person.
Generous with love.
Life is good.
Life is beautiful.
No matter how many hardships have appeared on my horizon, they have not compared to the thrill of being out to “sea”- moving forward.
The journey…
Love is beautiful.
So on this birthday I am happy for the fact that my shade of view isn’t Jade…
No, I am not jaded.
Shocking with all I have experienced.
I wish the same for you, as you read this-
To remember life is good, life is beautiful, love is the only true constant- when you love someone from how YOU ARE, you will never find a shortage of it.
Celebrate life!!
