I'm the fool...
Wed Feb 29 2012
I'm the fool
I’m the fool who thought that when you ran away
It had something to do with me
You left me to my worst assumptions, the very worst assumptions
Giving no relief
I’m the fool whose carried sadness like a candle
the dimmest, faintest light for me to see
Just where I find myself and the path I can’t return to
this place where you left me
I wonder what made your heart faint
To choose such cruelty
What could I have ever done for silence
Now all that I expect to meet
Yes, I’m the fool who keeps trying
The weight of pride crushingly
Every time I put heart to words
As you deny me
I’m the fool who prays deep down knowing
You turn your back on yourself, not so much me
It is you who suffers most
And must be such agony
Maybe so long denying these parts
Has made you too numb to be
Brave in heart and strong in mind
Both of those living in compatibility
Yes, I’m the fool who prays for you
That your way be at ease
That you might choose that which moves you
Instead of that which fits life comfortably
And if none of this you find in life
And you choose to live only to succeed
On levels man makes so importunate
for man to feel his vitality
Then I’m the fool who will continue
To live and to let it be
The way that you have asked me to
not in words but in your retreat
Yes, I’m the fool who knows what’s missed
As you go on blissfully
Ignorant to what was before you
If ever were a masterpiece
Of something having nothing to do
With you nor with me
Not speaking of love or infatuations
But of friendship and camaraderie
Not knowing where it might have gone
Never given the chance to see
Yes, I’m the fool who forgives
And in the same breath doesn’t feel the need
To each his own, everyone must choose
Everyone must concede
To live as they can, grow as best fit
In this life most peacefully
I’m the fool who saw some worth
In this crossing of paths between you and me...
I’m the fool who writes this now, hoping in each word letting go
there might be some release...
Yes, I’m the fool who wants you to know
I hold no animosity
Yes, I’m the fool who will go on being
Just as I am graciously
Knowing I’d rather be the fool
Than to never learn what this is showing me
That you not choosing to treat me with love
Has taught me how much love I do merit, on the contrary.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you for letting me be...
The fool.
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