Birthday Love…7/8/2009
My birthday was yesterday.
I had a party on Tuesday to celebrate life.
In the light of events both culturally and in my little Universe, I was feeling extra grateful for the little things.
The moments, on this birthday, were like single grains of sand to me. No matter how minute in size? I noticed them all.
Like snapshots in time.
Maybe that is part of getting older.
I sat and watched my friends, how very lovely they are. They are kind, generous, successful, strong and open hearted people.
Just noticing how something has changed in me.
Maybe change is not the word, since it feels more like a returning to something I already knew on some level, but was not consciously choosing.
I want to love people for the way I AM. Not for the way they are or I need them to be.
Read that again slowly…
To love a person for the way I AM, not the way they are or I need them to be.
Someone says something hurtful? Or disappoints in any way? Someone judges me or isn’t there for me like I would want them to be? At this point in my life, what does that have to do with me?
To love a person the way I AM…not the way they are or I need them to be.
Because I AM loving. I want to give a person the benefit of the doubt. I want to be generous in 2nd, 3rd and 4th chances. I want to be tolerant of differences. I don’t want to hold anything against another person. To make them pay for a mistake they have made, I don’t want to remind someone of their “faults” or “flaws”.
I want to love.
I always have. It is my insecurities from past crushes and blows that have kept me from fully demonstrating this in my life.
But here, on my 35th birthday, I find a pure form of this- unadulterated and real- in the form of gratitude.
On this birthday, out of all my years, I received more love than I could take in.
In observation? I believe the reason for this is I have been more generous than I have ever been at any point in my life.
I have been generous of time, my smile, a hug, understanding, listening, loyalty, forgiving and acknowledging a person.
Generous with love.
Life is good.
Life is beautiful.
No matter how many hardships have appeared on my horizon, they have not compared to the thrill of being out to “sea”- moving forward.
The journey…
Love is beautiful.
So on this birthday I am happy for the fact that my shade of view isn’t Jade…
No, I am not jaded.
Shocking with all I have experienced.
I wish the same for you, as you read this-
To remember life is good, life is beautiful, love is the only true constant- when you love someone from how YOU ARE, you will never find a shortage of it.
Celebrate life!!
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many blessings for you on this journey. I hope it all works as you wish. Another from the heart blog
xxo”
Happy belated 35th birthday, Amy! You look 25 and are as wise as any 45-year-old! Better than the other way around, for sure!
Wishing you many happy returns to the Krispy Kremes! The only thing those doughnuts were missing were candles in them! (Next year, I guess that’ll be an even 3 dozen — how convenient!
Best,
Dan in Kan.
Happy belated birthday Amy!!!!
May God bless you in all ways. Always keep your head high and keeping doing you. That’s the only thing that matters.
xoxoxoxo
Aisha
Well happy belated B-day. Mine was a day earlier on the 7th. I think I’m feeling another day older each time I play softball and kickball. Recovery time seems to take an extra day each year!!
“I want to love people for the way I AM. Not for the way they are or I need them to be.
Read that again slowly…”
I had to read it 3 or 4 times, did I cheat? hehe.
Your outlook on life and people is always things that I think about also Amy. The way I want things to be, and the way I want me to be!
I wish you the best 25th birthday ever, oooops, sorry, I mean 35th (you look at least 10 years younger
) I’m not the only one that sees it.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
G.P.- Thank you! I really appreciate it:)
Dan in Kan-
Yes…more years? More KK’s and then I will gain ten pounds and look my age I guess:)lol
Thank you for the kind words and birthday wishes!
Aisha-
Thank you!
I always have and I always will!
Take care:)XOXO
Billy H-
Thank you and Happy Birthday to you too!
I think it is because as we get older we put more into the things we do:) yeah… that is why we hurt the next day:)
I like my version better…
Bobby-
That is ok as long as you finally got it!
If not… I mean that if someone hurts me or I get disappointed in them- I don’t want to love them from the place of what they are or what they did to me-in other words give them the same amount of love in the same way they just did to me…what they “deserve”- I want to love them from the way I AM- peaceful, loving and kind…not angry and vengeful because of their actions…
I am sure you got that though:)
Thank you for the birthday wishes and for the 25 yr.s old comment- made me smile:):)